離 群 索 居 CROSS

   

         下午暴雨的时候在健身房跑步机上奔跑，任凭汗水滴下不去擦干。我在享受这种极限，更可以说我在用这重方式折磨自己的意识---我单方的这样认为

         没有可以用烟解决问题的理由，否则也许世界上有会出现一间氤氲的房间...可我的所谓的折磨已不那么强烈，我已经过了那个年龄。也许在外人看来我还是个孩子，但只是也许...只是也许

        回来后打开电脑听些恶俗的音乐，随便跟别人聊两句，一切都是淡淡的，波折也起不了波澜...一根黄瓜啃完了 结束敲字

 

美人鱼跳入大海就再也没有出来，
她只是不想只作条鱼，只是不想只

迎着这个夏天的太阳，
我们走吧，宝贝儿

听见自己身体爆裂的声音   像个饱满的肥皂泡，梆...梆...

她听到自己粉碎的声音 像想象中的玻璃，嚓...嚓...

她没有去想的时间，因为夏天就这样短暂 她要和他勇敢地私奔~

在这个炎炎的空气里，肆意地 无所顾忌地 她要舞起来 不顾疼痛。可是疼痛从来都垂青她的美丽，即使阳光已经让她晕眩。她强忍着--身体变轻变模糊...带着绚丽与耀眼的光环起飞吧~

“我还会下来吗？我还深深得爱着这片海这片蓝，曾经眷恋的地方，这个生我养我的地方…我还能回来吗？ 我曾那样地爱过你 那样专注着你的背影 然而我们注定是悲剧...”

转身 离开 幸福的摩天轮承载不了我的快乐 我的快乐太微薄 很容易飞得无影无踪

                            如果我忘记你的脸。
    如果我忘记你的脸...当我今天凌晨在毫无防范下发现了你的签名的时候,那种悲伤仿佛前世的延续,也许你不曾体会,也许你永远也不会想起这简单的一笔,永远也不会知道它一年多以后的出现会这样悲情而无奈...我仍然忘记你的脸

    凌晨,台灯下,毫无忌惮的让泪流,不发出痛苦的声音,不想打破这夜的宁静--我以为我忘记了,其实也许我真的忘记了,忘记了我们曾经走过的路,曾经一起看过的电影(虽然只有一部),忘记了那件你为我盖上的厚棉袄,忘记了曾经喂我吃的黄桃罐头...也许为了让烟永远点不完可以在为灭之时熄灭,那么可以为了让爱永远而中途放弃么?那样的回忆叫永恒么?也许是懦弱,在多年以后回首,不经意的细节让人黯然神伤,只是时间已逝,那条走廊的墙面被重新刷上了雪白而刺眼的新石灰,那个门依然熟悉只是物是人非--我曾经回去过...有点害怕,小心翼翼的走上去,用手抚摸那扇门,只有冰冷,,,如果可以,还要第二次起早去送早点,绝不让它凉掉,如果可以不耍脾气,不把话全憋心里,不在送你的车站决然地不回头,绝不... 可现在 我只能承认我的可笑,为什么要那样矜持的在你身边,而不是自己...算了~

    我在等待吗?等待什么呢?可以在没有回忆的时候生活的很好,我已经满足了,我还可以笑可以哭,可以有勇气将打湿的书页用纸巾擦干净然后再把它哭湿,前世欠你的,用今生的泪来弥补...也许这就是终点,即使偶尔体会到小小的幸福也没有勇气承认它的真实,即使快乐也夹着凉意...也许这就是终点 走过了 不能回头 哭过了 不能微笑

    “如果明天起床你就把什么都忘记了，只会让你记得一件事情，你会不会记住你爱的人的样子？”

    献给许许多多的祭奠 想起你手指间的烟

　

古巴裔女歌手玛蒂卡89年全美排行双周冠军、反毒最佳主题曲 http://ftp.yinyue8.com//angle2005/0087/17.Wma
Soldiers

Martika

It wasn't my intention to mislead you
It never should have been this way
What can I say
It's true, I did extend the invitation
I never knew how long you'd stay
When you hear temptation call
It's your heart that takes, takes the fall
(Won't you come out and play with me)
Step by step, heart to heart (heart to heart)
Left right left, we all fall down (fall down)
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit (bit by bit), torn apart (torn apart)
We never win but the battle rages on
For toy soldiers
It's getting hard to wake up in the morning
My head is spinning constantly
How can it be (how can it be)
How could I be so blind to this addiction
If I don't stop, the next one is gonna be me
Only emptiness remains
It replaces all of the pain
(Won't you come out and play with me)
Step by step, heart to heart (heart to heart)
Left right left, we all fall down (fall down)
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit (bit by bit), torn apart (torn apart)
We never win but the battle rages on
For toy soldiers
We never win
Only emptiness remains
It replaces all of the pain
(Won't you come out and play with me)
Step by step, heart to heart (heart to heart)
Left right left, we all fall down (fall down)
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit (bit by bit), torn apart (torn apart)
We never win but the battle rages on
For toy soldiers
Step by step, heart to heart (heart to heart)
Left right left, we all fall down (fall down)
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit (bit by bit), torn apart (torn apart)
We never win but the battle rages on
For toy soldiers

"november rain"
(rose)


when i look into your eyes
i can see a love restrained
but darlin' when i hold you
don't you know i feel the same

'cause nothin' lasts forever
and we both know hearts can change
and it's hard to hold a candle
in the cold november rain

we've been through this such a long long time
just tryin' to kill the pain

but lovers always come and lovers always go
an no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
walking away

if we could take the time to lay it on the line
i could rest my head
just knowin' that you were mine
all mine
so if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
or i'll just end up walkin'
in the cold november rain

do you need some time...on your own
do you need some time...all alone
everybody needs some time...on their own
don't you know you need some time...all alone

i know it's hard to keep an open heart
when even friends seem out to harm you
but if you could heal a broken heart
wouldn't time be out to charm you

sometimes i need some time...on my own
sometimes i need some time...all alone
everybody needs some time...on their own
don't you know you need some time...all alone

and when your fears subside
and shadows still remain
i know that you can love me
when there's no one left to blame
so never mind the darkness
we still can find a way
'cause nothin' lasts forever
even cold november rain

don't ya think that you need somebody
don't ya think that you need someone
everybody needs somebody
you're not the only one
you're not the only one